LIGHTS OUT

I dissaprove of my own actions, the constant ability to disappear from my blog for weeks at a time for the mere reason of forgetfullness. Or just simply, the inability to maintain any sort of routine.
Possibly becuase I'm a kind of spur of the moment person. If somethings appealing, I'll run to it, if I situation changes, I'll be a chameleon and adapt to it.
I love spontenaety. As long is it follows me my whole life, I will be completely happy :)\

Must run away and must study;
it never ends.

C;x

TRUE COLOURS

So somehow one simple comment can change my mind completely.

One person can make me feel so astonishingly happy. I love the people who surround me and although I have my moments where the old version of myself steps back into view, I still feel as though I've finally changed into the person I've always wanted to be.

Exams are upcoming and though it's so extremely stressful and scary that so many things are happening so fast, it's almost thrilling.

I've been waiting for these moments my entire life, waiting to to be set free into the real world, waiting to explore what this life has to offer me.

These days when you see me walking around smiling and laughing know that it's finally pure happiness, finally pure acception with life and myself.

I'm happier then i've ever been, the people in my life piece everything together and make me feel things that are inexplainable.

I dont know how to describe this emotion.

It's so perfect.

I love life, and I love you all!

I will never ever forget the people who I spend my current days with. And I hope you don't forget me.

C;x

and the worst part is,
all year I've been so happy and confident in every single thing I do, I've been proud and energetic.

now I've never felt so afraid and out of control
don't know how to act.
how to feel.
what to do.
my mind a catastrophe.

thats all.

THE LAST SOMETHING THAT MEANT ANYTHING

Okay, so the 30 day challenge has ended after four days. I could keep going but I honestly can't be bothered.
So much going on with school at the moment, it's extremely intense and everyones becoming stressed, agrivated and just completely different from their usual behaviour.

I was reading through a thought journal I kept a few months back and found some adorable pieces I wrote about a spider crawling through a flower. It was strange and so utterly different from the stories I usually write, but entertaining non-the-less.

I'm starting to really realise all the people and little things about this town that I will miss. Some of my teachers have become so amazing over this journey through year 12 that it will be like letting go of a sibling when I leave. Only four months till I go. Four days left at school. And four weeks till i'm finished with all my exams.
Exciting, terrifying, confusing. So many emotions jam packed into the little brain I hold in my head.
I want to do something to show those peole who've become dear to me this year how much I appreciate them. But it's not as simple as it sounds. I'm trying to make something for the one and only amazing literature teacher I have, I just hope that I can somehow capture what i'm trying to say without sounding childish, strange or corny.

I wish feelings in my heart would just appear on paper without me having to think of them. Figuring some things out would be so much easier then.

C;x

DON'T UNPLUG ME

Part 04; The best concert/gig you've been to.

Well sadly... i've only been to two or three concert/gigs. Which is going to completely change next year when I'm in the saweeeeeeeeet city and rocking it out :)
But the best has to be, Oddity. Best local band :) And my mates band so maybe I'm kinda bias. But they're truley awesome, and so good to watch. I love sitting in their practices while waiting for my bus ;p


Cutest video on youtube, Don't Unplug Me.
Iunno why it's just adorable.

Kind of a slow day so not much else to add.

Kindly awaiting inspiration;
C;x

SVEFN-G-ENGLAR

Along with many other things, this absolutely made my day;

Harry Potter is something I've loved ever since I was little, I still remember when I first went to read it my sister would make me read the first page aloud, and if I could do it without stumbling or not knowing words more less then five times I was allowed to read it alone :)

I've read and re read it so many times it's imprinted in my memory, and now the second last movie is finally on its way! Going to have a two day marathon of all the previous movies then go see a midnight screening with my other HP obsessed fans :)

Funny thing, I found the hat that came free with the Deathly Hallows book when it first came out :) Will have to fix my camera and get it up here. Just for the lols.

Part 03; A photo of you in a drunken state

Not drunk, just tipsy, and having an absolutely hilarious time being idiots on the trampoline at my mates 18th :) I like to be energetic and kinda crazy :)

JUST IN TIME

Part 02; List 20 of your favourite Tumblr's, and why they're you're favourites;

Well, sorry to disapoint but I don't have favourite tumblr's or blogs or anything. Yes rather lame but you'll just have to deal.

Exciting, awesome, epic, amazing news!

I got into the College I wanted to for next year, the place is so great! I've wanted to go there for about five years now and it completely made my day to get in. Funny thing, the place kind of reminds me of Hogwarts a little, which is also awesome as when I was little I used to wait for my Hogwarts letter. Hmm I might re read those books, after exams of course (or maybe just before secretly :) )

Also, this morning I got some amazing news, the folio I spent al year working on and stressing over was completely worth it! Got a mark I am oh so very happy with, this day is just getting better and better. Not sure I want to spoil it with a night of study so I'm thinking just a night of Sex and the City, tea and some books sounds perfect :)

And my happiness and pure bliss continues from now and into the night :)

Happy smiling lovers,

C ;x

THE FEW THAT REMAIN

Okay, my bad, I was away for a while again.

But now I plan on posting every day, just because I love to procrastinate and secretly... exams are really freaking me out but I wont tell anyone else that :)

i want to forget how it feels to be afraid

So to force myself to be on here every day i'm going to embark on a 30 day challenge;
stolen from the awesome http://sweetlilaaayy.blogspot.com/

Part 01; The celebrity you'de do unthinkable illegal things to;

Not that I actually watch Vampire Diaries, but Ian Somerhalder... mmm :)

Did you know, that just possibly, I'm being inspired by the sunshine?
I've begun to actually write again, reworking my novel, third time lucky.
I love my short stories so I want to use them somehow and I'm just figuring out how it works best. So far, I'm liking it, alot. 1400 words down, way too many to go.

Funny thing is though, the things I write are so dark and depressing, yet I feel so happy right now. So insanley happy that I could explode into a million colours and scatter all around the universe then come back together still smiling.
Strange? Or are things just falling perfectly into place right now?

No stress, is amazing.

C ;x

PLASTIC JUNGLE

Wow, so I went off the grid for a while. Completely not my fault :)

Things have been so thoroughly intense with Grease production, but I LOVE IT!
2 days till we perform. The people, the music, the dancing, the fun, the laughter, it's all just so amazing and every day everyone is inspiring me. I love the entire cast, specially our little main family. I couldnt ask for a better way to be spending my time :)

Everything is so exciting and thrilling lately. Sent in my uni application, now I just have to apply for my courses (after Grease is finished) and hope I get in.

It's awfully strange to think how fast my life has gone by and how soon I'll be escaping to the big bad world on my own, writing to my hearts content, dancing through new streets and blogging new adventures.
I'm going to discover a whole new world, a place of magic. Life is magic. We all are. Living and breathing magic. It's a wonderful delight, a ravishing truth.

I can't wait to begin my adventures.

WITH A SPIRIT

"You can be, whatever you want when you're high. Walk slowly, with spirit by your side"

I shall be making disappearances over the next week or so. Internet is temporary being confiscated so that I can "concentrate on my studies more". Although study has become my life, second to school production that is.

So anyway, I started writing again, and it's wonderful! Though I almost forgot how it was to write something from begining to end, rather then just re writing old loves.
I'm finding it incredibly difficult to capture this worlds beauty in writing. I have an idea of exactly what I want to write. I'm just worried, that there's too much pain within it that one love story isn't enough to bring back happiness.




On another note, I have a wonderful full day rehearsal tomorow for Grease! The best part of my week is the Sunday's where I get to delve into the depths of what is Cha Cha :) Thanks to the amazing, brilliant people around me I think I'm getting there. Everyone is so helpful and wonderful! Where would I be without these beautiful people who surround me?

Speaking of beautiful, I watched Remember Me with my mum last night. We had a bit of a movie sesh, and that was so fantastic! At first I thought it would be terrible because I'm not the greatest fan of Robert Pattinson, due to sparkly fairy roles, but here he was brilliant. I've only ever cried in three movies in my life, and this is one of them. Along with Titanic and Moulin Rogue. I then went on to watch Grease with her, then a whole load more today. Started watching Notebook but I don't think I could handle that many sad movies, plus my horrific stories all in one weekend.

So all in all i've been rather lazy, but I can say it's due to saving all my energy for Grease! And for not getting sick. Goal number one!

Although I should probably head off and do some actual study. I spend the morning cleaning instead today. It is a Saturday.

Goodbye all;
C;x