ONLY GIRL

I love how some songs can manage to depict everything we are feeling through our soul and the words enter our ears. Perhaps, we are simply converting the words into a meaning that suits our current situation, as we find ourselves doing so often with horoscopes, or perhaps we simply feel so much as females that any song could parallel with our lives in some sense or another.

"Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world"

Maybe we all just want to feel loved, and we all just want someone to care for us as much as we dream that we wish we could care for ourselves.

And perhaps, this random use of inclusive language is a strange way of my subconscious trying to seperate myself from these emotions as I'm still afraid of losing someone, of losing the amazing feelings people help us gain. Possibly that's why lately, when things start to feel so brilliant and perfect, something changes and my mind disappears into an abyss where I don't have to remember that very, very soon, this will be taken away from me. However it will be replaced with something amazing, my future. Yet I am still afraid.

Melancholy, I think so. I blame Keat's, well slightly. Such beautiful words, such ominous views on life. But then, that's simply just my viewing of it.

For now, I shall delve into the depths of my own strange mind within sleep. For later, I will work past this bump in my road and evolve, as my little Pokemon do, into a much more beautiful, confident person, understanding and accepting of my own emotions.

C;x